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[Apr. 10th, 2010|05:30 pm] |
well, i totally screwed that up.
LJBF.
that's what i get for getting my hopes up. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2010|12:17 am] |
i'm failing at this statement that i seem to say every time:
i'll watch my step to fall for her |
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[Feb. 8th, 2010|06:02 pm] |
Well, boys and girls, it’s been awhile. The beginning of this year has had its moments.
The biggest of which has been the reformation of Model UN http://themodelun.com
We decided to get our asses in gear and get a bass player. One night while I was over at Renee’s new house I met Matt. Matt said he had been looking to do more music projects. I played him some of our album and the rest is history. He and his roommates have been kind of enough to allow us to use their living room as our practice space. We practice 2 nights a week and have already written 3 new songs. We’re slowly integrating select portions of older songs but the overall goal is to write new songs. We’ve been offered some shows but concrete dates have not been confirmed as of yet.
Needless to say the band coming back has lifted my spirits immensely. I was teetering on that “Do I need to move away? Do I need to sell all my guitar equipment? Do I need to stop killing and burying hookers?” line of questioning and it was putting me in a terrible place. I’m feeling better but there are still things I need to work out.
First of which is what to do once I get my bonus on 3/5/10. When this substantial amount of money comes in I can decide to do one of many things. I can try to weather the AT&T storm and see if things get better schedule wise and morale wise or I can cut loose and hope to find another job. There is also the idea of proactively searching while at my job but this is hard to focus on. I have some time to think about it. Until then I maintain the worst schedule of all time. Not really but 12-9p doesn’t lend itself to a lot of social interaction outside of the bar life.
I’ve been on a few dates but nothing has been sticking. My pickiness and personality flaws seem to be the major issues causing this loneliness. Being single isn’t that bad but I can’t help but thinking Everyone Comes in Pairs, and that my new nickname should be “The X Wheel” because I tend to be the 3rd, 5th, 7th, etc. wheel in a ton of social situations. Oh well. That’s fine. That’s. Just. Fine.
SXSW is right around the corner. Seeing as this my Christmastime I am getting anxious. The key to success this year will not to go all out the first few nights like last year. I was completely dead by Thursday that the weekend wasn’t as awesome as the previous year. Just take it easy, Givens. With Alex stage managing again it will help temper the insanity.
That’s it, I suppose. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|01:56 am] |
alright so i don't care what anyone thinks. this is what i wrote my sister on the night of her engagement....
Hey Sis,
Despite all of what you think/believe/perceive you need to know this: I'm your brother. At times I've been annoying, boring, useless. At other times overbearing, pointless and random. But I will forever be your brother, the protector, the first-born. I will be the one to make sure that you never go to sleep with worries, sadness or doubt. That is my promise. I know I've not been a great person to you throughout some of the years but I swear to you that I've always sworn that I will protect you from any harm that I can (I have some good stories for you.) You are my only sister. You are the one that proves to me that our bloodline is amazing and unique. You are beautiful, amazing and SPECIAL because you are the only one who shares OUR family. I love you so much and I know that you will be happy in everything you do. You are all the best parts of Mom and Dad and that makes me appreciate you more than you will ever know. In a weird way I wish you could see my tears. But not really BECAUSE I'M A MAN AND I DON'T CRY!!!! ok, maybe i do...sometimes....
I love you, Korri...
Love,
Jeffrey |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|05:37 pm] |
my friends just know me too well
Trout: the fact that ***** said that proves to me a little bit more that you and her are soulmates
me: hahahaha. it's best not to think about it. my rational side sometimes thinks about the irreparable emotional damage we would do to each other
Trout: then you remember that a risk like that is the only thing that can keep you interested in a girl
me: HAHAHAHAHA |
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[Jun. 1st, 2009|07:22 pm] |
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Depth vs. Breadth
I would say that I am now more of a breadth person. I don't have a huge interest or obsession with a few things rather I have a broad basis and small interest in many things. This was not always the case. For awhile you could say I was deeply obsessed with few things. Back in high school all I really did was debate, play/listen to music and read(on the internet) about those things. Nowadays my interests are much broader. I don't know as much about any single iten but I think I have a good grasp of many things: music, politics, sports, poker, stand-up comics, technology, personal finance, leisure studies (leave that to your imagination), working for a large communications company (bleh), useless trivia, on and on and on.
In a way I think this happens as you transition out of college and into early working years. It makes me think that eventually the mid-life crisis thing will force back a deep interest in to a few small things of which I'm not sure.
It might go to show that I'm searching for some catharsis (new job? the band actually playing again? finding a new hobby to add to the arsenal?) in order to break out of the same old thing I'e been doing. I'm not bored but I'm kind of ired of the same old thing. My problem is my laziness getting into something else. I'm just not sure what to try. I GUESS IT'S TIME TO GET A HEROIN ADDICTION YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY |
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[May. 29th, 2009|07:27 pm] |
I need to really start posting more if for no other reason than to actually write, ya know?
Two things on my mind that really aren't all that important:
1: I think it's funny when people try to trick me into admitting I like something that I've claimed to hate by making me say I like it when I don't know what it is (huh?)
Por ejemplo, someone puts on a Pavement song and says "Do you like this song?" My standard response would be "Who is this?" If I say that they usually will try to keep up their trickery and say "It doesn't matter. Do you like it?" But I am too cunning! I know when they are trying to trick me into liking something I don't actually like.
Other examples of people trying to force me to like things I will never like: Seinfeld, Harry Potter, the moon, rain, vegetables, soy products, organized religion, McDonalds, the remake of Willy Wonka, not taking my pants off in public and neck tattoos.
2: The song "No Attention" by Soundgarden. This song was on the Down On the Upside album and is about how Chris Cornell is often told how to live his life by the "establishment" yet he pays "no attention." So, here's the thing: Chris Cornell just came out with an album produced by Timbaland (Timbalind? I don't know or care) and is MOR, pop-radio dirge. I cant tell if he's contradicting himself with the song "No Attention" or embracing it. On the one hand he's trying to make money by tapping into the pop culture but on the other hand he's going against all of his fans saying he should make traditional rock records. Either way the new album is terrible and "No Attention" is one of the best Soundgarden songs ever. (Especially the part where is goes half-time and they hit that low Dmaj while he screams "No! Attentioooon!")
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[Mar. 28th, 2009|03:47 pm] |
i've been gone, my little lj-ers, i know:
1. SXSW was its usual crazy little world. didn't go as crazy this year as last but still was pretty batty. alex and i got kicked out of the purevolume party. i'm not sure why. i think it's because we are awesome. my liver aint what it used to be but i sure as hell tried. my car got towed. $214. ugh played 3 shows the most important one being the roughest. check out some pics at alison's flickr www.flickr.com/photos/aquaholical
2. i'm finally moving out of the ghetto. the final weekend of april i'll be moving to the apartments where Julian (the limey brit) and his wife live. it's a high scale place off of lamar just north of the brodie oaks shopping center. the apartment backs into the greenbelt and i am a 10 min walk from work.
3. speaking of work: the job search for something else is pretty much pointless as their are no jobs available. i'm waiting for UT to re-open that software developer trainee position. i considered working for AFLAC but then researched and decided it really wasn't my thing. at&t continues to be draining and filled with red tape. i wouldn't mind it if they actually paid the national average for managers instead of allowing the people who work for me to make more per hour than i do.
4. the band is back to its hibernation with alex back in canada. we're waiting to see if we get any funding to release our album (which is done) or if we are going to have to pay for it ourselves. the holding pattern continues. for the time being you can check out new songs at www.themodelun.com
5. i'm utterly shameless
6. does it smell like up-dog in here? |
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